Comic-Con 2017, 1 Month Later by Craig Kerbrat

I did it again. I had all of these great ideas in my head that I would blog about Comic-Con while I was there, but clearly that didn't happen. There's too much going on to take time out to write about it. And then immediately afterwards I'm too burnt out to even think about chronicling the events.

But looking back at my previous post leading up to Comic-Con, I noticed that going into it was exactly how I felt coming out of it. The people and the events all felt inspiring to me. Everyone who goes to Comic-Con is really excited to be there, whether they're a fan, a creator, or both, and I'm once again reminded that I'd like to be the "both" part of that.

I still haven't figured out what my "thing" is. I know I can be creative. But it requires putting in the effort, and I'm still struggling with that. I don't know if it's just pure laziness, or if the added fear of failure is holding me back, but I know I need to get over it. I need to figure out what it is that I can contribute to the world. I want to make my mark.

I sometimes think I'd like to be a writer. Which is why I do this. Practice. And an outlet. But I haven't really had any good story ideas in a long time. I have a few rolling around in the back of my mind, but I haven't fleshed them out yet.

I sometimes think I'd rather be a journalist of some sort. Which is also writing, but writing the stories of others. But I have a lot to learn there. I regret not pursuing schooling on the subject.

I also sometimes think that maybe I'd like to have some sort of YouTube channel. But then I can't think what the subject of my channel would be. Am I interesting enough to just talk about things on camera? Or do I record adventures out in the world? Do I show off the things I love close to home?

Is anything I would have to say or show interesting or original enough to bother with?

These are all of the things that plague my brain when I think that I might be inspired to create something. And I'm sure they're the same things that other people struggle with. Probably even the successful ones. So I need to get over it.

Because how am I ever going to get to be a guest at Comic-Con if I don't even try?

Comic-Con 2017, T-Minus 5 Days by Craig Kerbrat

Again, it's been too long since I've updated this. But it's almost Comic-Con time again, so I'm bringing it back.

It's been a hectic month or so in the life of thenoblehero, but things are stable enough for me to focus on Comic-Con and get really really ridiculously excited about it.

Whenever I go to Comic-Con I can't help but feel inspired by all of the creativity going on around me. Whether it's all of the great content being shown off at the booths and panels, or the awesome art being sold, the great stories being told, or the amazing cosplay that people put so much work into. It's all so amazing and it reminds me that I want to put something out there too. 

I wish I could figure out what my "thing" is. Maybe it's writing something awesome. A comic series, or a novel, or short stories. Maybe I should be telling other people's stories. Or maybe it's talking about the things I love on my own YouTube channel or podcast. I just know I want to be doing something creative. 

I was about to say that I just don't know what it is yet. But that's not the reason I haven't done it yet. It's because I haven't put in the work yet. And I haven't managed to get over my fear yet. Fear often stops my from doing things. Fear of failure. Fear of being made fun of. Fear of being ignored, or disliked. Fear of the unknown.

I want to do great things. So I should just do them. And not think so much about what might go wrong. Just have fun with it. 

Maybe that will be my focus this year at Comic-Con. Really take in the creative energy and use it to do something special. 'Cause I'd really like to go to Comic-Con with something to show people someday, so I can be a real part of the magic. 

That's the dream. 

New Start by Craig Kerbrat

Oh, hey long-ignored blog. How's it going? 

Not so great? Feeling abandoned?

I'm sorry about that.

I am not entirely sure what happened, but somehow I became entirely discouraged and unmotivated to post anything here, and every time I thought about posting something, I just kind of... didn't. So this is my first attempt at rectifying that. It's not a super exciting post, just me talking. But it's something!

A while ago I started to think that I had nothing "interesting" to say here, and my blog just kind of devolved into me posting about my fitness failures. And it just made me feel kind of bad about myself. So I stopped posting. 

But I've just read a really great book by an awesome internet lady, Felicia Day. You're Never Weird on the Internet (Almost). Here's some info about it. Go read it. It's cool. I laughed. I cried. While on an airplane surrounded by strangers. But most importantly, I was also inspired. 

I have creative ideas in my head that often get crushed down with "it's not good enough" thoughts, and reading Felicia's book has made me decide to try anyway. 

So I think for the time being, I'm going to chronicle my attempts to be creative here. And maybe post other nerdy stuff too. But I have this story idea I've been kicking around for a while, and I think it might finally be time to get to work on it properly. And then I can post my progress here. Remember that whole "being accountable" thing I use to talk about with my failed attempts at getting fit? Maybe it'll work better here.

In any case, this is a new starting point. So let's do this!