I did it again. I had all of these great ideas in my head that I would blog about Comic-Con while I was there, but clearly that didn't happen. There's too much going on to take time out to write about it. And then immediately afterwards I'm too burnt out to even think about chronicling the events.
But looking back at my previous post leading up to Comic-Con, I noticed that going into it was exactly how I felt coming out of it. The people and the events all felt inspiring to me. Everyone who goes to Comic-Con is really excited to be there, whether they're a fan, a creator, or both, and I'm once again reminded that I'd like to be the "both" part of that.
I still haven't figured out what my "thing" is. I know I can be creative. But it requires putting in the effort, and I'm still struggling with that. I don't know if it's just pure laziness, or if the added fear of failure is holding me back, but I know I need to get over it. I need to figure out what it is that I can contribute to the world. I want to make my mark.
I sometimes think I'd like to be a writer. Which is why I do this. Practice. And an outlet. But I haven't really had any good story ideas in a long time. I have a few rolling around in the back of my mind, but I haven't fleshed them out yet.
I sometimes think I'd rather be a journalist of some sort. Which is also writing, but writing the stories of others. But I have a lot to learn there. I regret not pursuing schooling on the subject.
I also sometimes think that maybe I'd like to have some sort of YouTube channel. But then I can't think what the subject of my channel would be. Am I interesting enough to just talk about things on camera? Or do I record adventures out in the world? Do I show off the things I love close to home?
Is anything I would have to say or show interesting or original enough to bother with?
These are all of the things that plague my brain when I think that I might be inspired to create something. And I'm sure they're the same things that other people struggle with. Probably even the successful ones. So I need to get over it.
Because how am I ever going to get to be a guest at Comic-Con if I don't even try?